Doing this re #introduction post for newcomers here 😊

Hi! I'm Becky! 🤗

I draw Helicopter Death (see my profile pic), who's been my pet character since grade 3, I love to #paint, I sometimes write #essays when I think of them and I love doing #research, especially on #bipolar but also on other topics which cross my mind.

I live with bipolar and I think #adhd, so I post about that a lot, and other mental health things. I also post a lot about my kids and random things I think are cool or interesting. Likely sometimes politics. Maybe some lgbtq+ (I'm bi and demi)...

I know things about #memory and #psychopathology too, as those are very interesting areas for me and I've done seminars when I was in undergrad (plus I started grad school in clinical psychology but I never finished)

Adjacently, I'm married to @silverwizard so sometimes I talk about tech stuff too, if a topic comes up between us that sits with me

Nice to meet you all 😊

I adore music and play it constanty to survive

But Shæ is very sensitive to noise so I play it low most of the time.... but importantly, he doesn't dance much or sing along much

So yesterday when he started swaying to music on a patio restaurant I took notes

I played him Jazz today. He said he loves it! I think he likes Jazz!! More music I can play for him!!

Ro is the opposite, he loves music

My kid said today

"Mummy, I want us to make cookies"

Well, needless to say, there was no arm bending about it

...
But now I have soo many cookies and I need to stop eating them

For the last few month my mother in law has taken my kids to the park for 3h to give me opportunities to do other things

Most days I clean frantically in that time

Today I have an appointment an hour and 15min later but right now I feel like doing absolutely nothing

So I texted my partner: "Gosh I feel like just not being productive"

His response: "You can be"

Just a gentle reminders for others like me in the world.....

You can... just not be productive sometimes.... it's okay.... you deserve rest sometimes too ❤️

I have a very technical feed

I don't consider myself to know nothing, but nothing makes me feel like I know nothing more than being surrounded by technicality 😂

I find this amusing, I mpre so find it super cool! I do not feel sad about it!!

Giving out these tubs of cotton candy this year so as not to use chocolate. Hope the kiddos love it.... my dream is to be the house in the neighborhood with the best candy and Sean's is to have big sized candy that's he feels it's a cool thing as part of the infosec community

40 tubs of different flavoured cotton candy

Finally all set up for Halloween and these pumpkins are done! Only took me an hour and a half 😅

One pic of a car, one of a spider web with a dangling spider beside, one of a pumpkin and the last is a silhouette of a cat's face

Thinking about a conversation with @silverwizard the other day where we chatted about how useful (and just nice!) It is that I know my fediverse instance admin personally (because he's it) because I don’t have to think about the trust issue or my admin doing something that I might not agree with.... it's a safe space

This was in a larger conversation about decentralization and community

Asking an older toddler a question do be like

Me: "do you want blankets or sheets?" (For making a fort)
Shæ: "I want paint! And glue! And glitter!"

Like I have a plan because parenting but.... i still don't know about the sheets or blankets question

Anyone else know tfw you want to do a house task like 100x more than another house task but you must do the second task first so you feel paralyzed because the second task is hitting my executive dysfunction marker...

Just me? Ah, yeah :/

My full name is Rebecca

I said to Sean, "you have recently decided to call me by my full name"
Sean: "Robecca. It's now our sons name"
Me: "poor Rowan"

@Jonathan Lamothe (he/him) just watched your video on cold brew coffee.... thinking this method might be exactly what I need in my life 😄 as my cold brew pitcher just shattered

Away to the dollar store (in the morning)!

Throughout the pandemic, my sister's fam and I have been novid together, but now she has covid 😔

Slowly everyone I know except us has been hit at least once 😔

Thinking about that time I worked for a family babysitting their small child. I was just thinking of maybe confiding in then my mental illness because I hate to keep that hidden and I tend to share it earlier rather than later if I feel like maybe I can.

Anyway, the mother decided to confide in me first how they had a previous babysitter who they got along with really well until she told them she had bipolar. Then they were nervous she would be dangerous when she took care of their kid, and were relieved when she quit soon after.

Needless to say, this ended up being another mark on the page of Wait To Confide for me because uh, ablism is not fun and I don’t need it directed to me.

It makes me think sometimes. I think about stigma and ablism but I also think of my power of being able to hide it all. That I have an invisible disability. Nobody ever guesses. There has been exactly 1 person who said he'd wondered: my thesis advisor in clinical psych for my undergrad thesid because of my intensity of interest in my area of research (bipolar).

Feeling frustration at the lack of like, care and understanding some of my family have when I interact with them.

My grandmother's funeral was supposed to be tomorrow. I foumd out 2 weeks ago from my sister. Now it's been posponed, I found out today by asking specifically the person in the know (aka my uncle)