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My Views of Being a Hacker

I fell long and hard into the hacking world as a teenager, partially through the punk scene and partially through reading posts and grabbing shared text files through BBSes. I was 14.

I was hungry. I was curious. I wanted to learn, do, and mingle.

I saw Hackers in the theater when I was 16. I rented Sneakers on VHS. I was getting heavily drawn into cyberpunk. I was already using Linux and learning about both its internals, as well as the internals of Solaris (the only UNIX we had a copy of), and Windows NT.

I then discovered the Cult of the Dead Cow, 2600, Phrack, and the Church of the SubGenius. Pure bliss.

I don't know what happened, but I read The Cathedral and the Bazaar, found the Free Software Foundation, and suddenly in my 20s... I was fucking BORING. All the mindset and style suddenly got thrown in the trunk.

I hated it. I hated myself for doing this to myself. This wasn't the kind of hacker I wanted to be... turn into a grumpy, boring, insufferable asshole? No, I couldn't do that.

In my 30s, I cast that aside. I began to embrace my old self again. I started to feel whole again.

Now, in my 40s, I look back and I think about this... Eric Raymond was gatekeeping. Him and his ilk are not the masters. They're the assholes. Who the fuck are they to tell us what kinds of hackers we should be? They claim "don't conform", not knowing the irony in their words and actions.

Which is why I say, I will be the kind of hacker that pisses ESR off to no end. I will do it my way.

Hack the Planet. Piss off the gatekeepers.
#HackThePlanet

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re: My Views of Being a Hacker
@thegibson 2016 was also the year that fully re-radicalized me. 2011 and the Occupy movement also started the spark again, but Agent Orange's election was the kerosene on the fire for me.
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@thegibson @Luther There's a song for that!

youtu.be/Vh_x--PJ7RQ

in reply to The 500 Hats of LambdaCalculus

My Views of Being a Hacker
I had a very similar experience growing up, BBSs, learning about hacking, reading 2600 and phrack, finding things on IRC, getting Linux working with only a book (no google!)... What a wild trip it's been, eh?
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I deeply relate to this, and I've had a similar experience. I am also pretty disillusioned on open source and free software, and I miss the days of +Fravia and cracking. Might be a little later in life than you. My latest realization is how much open source is controlled by industry and how much it hurts workers: i.e., we're all expected to keep up with all this overly complex bloated bullshit, the latest language, the latest tech, the latest frameworks, etc. It's almost enough to make one long for the days where a programmer/hacker could focus on one system and fully understand it (yes, even if it was a proprietary system! you couldn't keep us from taking them apart!).
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My Views of Being a Hacker
I love this post but I don't think I know enough about ESR to know his stance on hacking or really anything outside of basic OSS beliefs
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My Views of Being a Hacker
@brad Long and short, he looks down on hackers raised in the 80s and 90s, or on 2600 or other hacker zines, as unintelligent, unmotivated, and generally stupid kids, which is a really shitty attitude to take about it. We all had to learn from *something*, right?
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@brad His equation, according to his "How to Become a Hacker" FAQ, is that 2600 leads to automatic jail time.
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Profile of a J Random Hacker is such a thinly veiled self description.

I think the hacker/punk ethos is still around, it’s just queers instead of boring cis straight white libertarian autistic men leading the way.

Shouldn’t be surprising. The power dynamic changed in the past 30 years. The leading edge always comes from the margins.

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@jonathankoren That's one of the things I think ESR can't, or won't, accept. Hackers are a wildly varied bunch, of all races, creeds, and sexual orientations. And hacking doesn't always involve a computer.
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My Views of Being a Hacker

I had a similar progression (although I found ESR essays earlier in my journey).

It has been disappointing seeing how those ideals have been co-opted by tech companies to chase profit above all.

10 years ago I was so excited about Linux and open source "winning" that I was blind to the true nature of the companies pushing for it. Now I realize it was a deal with the devil.

Thankfully there are still people keeping the old hacker spirit alive.

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My Views of Being a Hacker
@Michael Potter @The 500 Hats of LambdaCalculus there's no non-corporate way to just "own enough servers you can rent them infinitely", we gotta, as a group, remember that that's a devil's bargain