CW: male gaze

I was just thinking about how much I've struggled to find my personal style because my whole life I've been running away from the male gaze. Not because anything happened, but being demi and not really very interested in being viewed from that kind of perspective has made me stressed to wear anything that wasn't thrown together without any thought. In theory, I want to like what I wear and how I look but the idea of drawing any kind of attention to myself, especially male attention, has driven me to this point where only now am I figuring out what I like to look like for myself...