Hi! I'm Becky! ๐ค
I draw Helicopter Death (see my profile pic), who's been my pet character since grade 3, I love to #paint, I sometimes write #essays when I think of them and I love doing #research, especially on #bipolar but also on other topics which cross my mind.
I live with bipolar and I think #adhd, so I post about that a lot, and other mental health things. I also post a lot about my kids and random things I think are cool or interesting. Likely sometimes politics. Maybe some lgbtq+ (I'm bi and demi)...
I know things about #memory and #psychopathology too, as those are very interesting areas for me and I've done seminars when I was in undergrad (plus I started grad school in clinical psychology but I never finished)
Adjacently, I'm married to @silverwizard so sometimes I talk about tech stuff too, if a topic comes up between us that sits with me
Nice to meet you all ๐
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Thinking on this post @silverwizard looking for someone to make sea shanties and so I've got music on my mind
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Sean: "I don't think that would fly in real life"
Shรฆ: "It would! It has a handle to help you fly it!!"
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Art Prints: https://rebeccawangart.com/featured/chill-capybara-rebecca-wang.html
Redbubble: https://www.redbubble.com/shop/ap/117663171
Available as a holographic sticker and more in my Etsy: https://www.etsy.com/shop/rebeccawangart?search_query=capybara
#capybara #art #MastoArt #psychedelicart #TraditionalArt #rebeccawangart #acrylicpainting #AnimalArt
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But Shรฆ is very sensitive to noise so I play it low most of the time.... but importantly, he doesn't dance much or sing along much
So yesterday when he started swaying to music on a patio restaurant I took notes
I played him Jazz today. He said he loves it! I think he likes Jazz!! More music I can play for him!!
Ro is the opposite, he loves music
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"Mummy, I want us to make cookies"
Well, needless to say, there was no arm bending about it
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But now I have soo many cookies and I need to stop eating them
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#art #illustration #rose #nature #robot #procreate #painting #drawing #artprocess #sticker #mastodonart
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Most days I clean frantically in that time
Today I have an appointment an hour and 15min later but right now I feel like doing absolutely nothing
So I texted my partner: "Gosh I feel like just not being productive"
His response: "You can be"
Just a gentle reminders for others like me in the world.....
You can... just not be productive sometimes.... it's okay.... you deserve rest sometimes too โค๏ธ
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-recommendations from @silverwizard
-people who followed me
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She's also on friendica where we have Community timeline and various forms of your follows. But her Community tab is all hackers because her instance is mostly me.
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I don't consider myself to know nothing, but nothing makes me feel like I know nothing more than being surrounded by technicality ๐
I find this amusing, I mpre so find it super cool! I do not feel sad about it!!
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A naked like is a perfectly fine social media reaction, nobody I know would take ombrage if a comment doesnโt follow. Sure, a comment is nice, but not everybody has something relevant to add and itโs fine.
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I think that tells me all this is all in my head. I think I just worry a lot on social media, more so than in real life even
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Giving out these tubs of cotton candy this year so as not to use chocolate. Hope the kiddos love it.... my dream is to be the house in the neighborhood with the best candy and Sean's is to have big sized candy that's he feels it's a cool thing as part of the infosec community
40 tubs of different flavoured cotton candy
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This was in a larger conversation about decentralization and community
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Me: "do you want blankets or sheets?" (For making a fort)
Shรฆ: "I want paint! And glue! And glitter!"
Like I have a plan because parenting but.... i still don't know about the sheets or blankets question
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Just me? Ah, yeah :/
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I really should be less involved in VC culture - but my life kinda makes it impossible to be
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I said to Sean, "you have recently decided to call me by my full name"
Sean: "Robecca. It's now our sons name"
Me: "poor Rowan"
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Away to the dollar store (in the morning)!
Slowly everyone I know except us has been hit at least once ๐
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Anyway, the mother decided to confide in me first how they had a previous babysitter who they got along with really well until she told them she had bipolar. Then they were nervous she would be dangerous when she took care of their kid, and were relieved when she quit soon after.
Needless to say, this ended up being another mark on the page of Wait To Confide for me because uh, ablism is not fun and I donโt need it directed to me.
It makes me think sometimes. I think about stigma and ablism but I also think of my power of being able to hide it all. That I have an invisible disability. Nobody ever guesses. There has been exactly 1 person who said he'd wondered: my thesis advisor in clinical psych for my undergrad thesid because of my intensity of interest in my area of research (bipolar).
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My grandmother's funeral was supposed to be tomorrow. I foumd out 2 weeks ago from my sister. Now it's been posponed, I found out today by asking specifically the person in the know (aka my uncle)
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(I'll fight you if you tell me it's already over)
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I've been anxious to talk about it because I donโt have the formal dx and so I still feel unsure claiming it as my space too, but the medication is certainly not doing nothing
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I donโt even know what to do. I'm so scared I'm going to wake up one day and he'll have disappeared into oblivion and I'll have no way to find him, because it's already a challenge to find him
The only other people who care are just as powerless as me & Sean: my sister and his brother
My grandmother spent actual years fueling his paranoia about all of us and this is where it's led and it's hard not to be upset about it, even though she's gone now
I just donโt even know what to do
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Yeah, that makes sense, although she was as much affected as he was. I think I'll need to spend some time working thru my feelings around it. I'm one of those, find solace in myself in forgiveness in others types
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I'd never push other people it. I understand other people's journeys are their own. I'm not going to preach it. It works differently and some people do some pretty awful things that don't warrent that kind of response.
I'm not about to forgive the various organizations and people that took advantage of my grandmother in her later years, for example.. but I might need to forgive her for my own peace. I might not, we'll see. I'm still working thru it
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It was an incredibly rough month beforehand, so I'm extremely grateful to be internally more peaceful and not so turbulent
One thing I feel like I know know about trauma recovery is that it really gets to the worst point right before it turns around
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Oh they just want "child appropriate school material" by banning lgbtq+ books from classrooms
Like just say you want to ban books if you really think it's a problem for children, but I know you understand exactly what you're doing and the legitimate backlash you'll recieve if you're honest about what you're doing so you hide behind a face to get the thing you want so you can hurt people
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Then I woke up to start the day by taking both kids to their vaccine appointments
Now they're both feeling it and I'm exhausted so countdown to having another adult help commences
Problem is, while I was having every hair yanked out of my head, he was having his head repeatedly kicked by a tiny toddler.... so......
Not sure these vaxes were a great idea for today ๐
I went to my mum's outdoor 60th birthday party and she had invited her wheelchair bound friend to the party. It was in the back garden with a very narrow pathway to the party and they (my mum's friend and her mum, also my mum's friend) wanted to get past this awkward part that was too narrow because of the concrete stairs to the house.
So my brother and I stick around to help. He suggests he lift the very heavy wheelchair in which the person in the wheelchair and her mum both say that it's too heavy and they'd rather not try. To which my brother starts inspecting the wheelchair and goes to touch it multiple times, at which point I said, each time, "you can't touch it, you need to ask first" (he did actually touch it once, I think)
Which like should be common knowledge, I thought was common knowledge. Like, in the vein of, you wouldn't touch someone's purse without asking why would you touch their wheelchair (obviously this is an imperfect example because wheelchairs are not just like purses etc).
After they were past this tricky point, my brother, gives me this absolutely furious-with-me look and storms off to calm down. I hate it. But I feel incredibly strongly about consent, and it is actually an important thing... :(
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I recognize the irony of pointing this out as a comment to a story about someone who got upset to be pointed out their behavior regarding disability wasnโt welcome, but I felt it was important other people knew about this expression.
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One day I'll feel internally stable again and I look forward to it... I feel lucky and thankful that I have some idea what it's supposed to look and feel like โค๏ธ
I should do some art expression tonight ๐, and consider what audiobooks might be fun
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We're rewatching Murder, She Wrote again, and feeling like not much has changed in my preferences, apparently
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A few weeks ago we went around to these little free libraries and chose some books for Shรฆ to read, but most of them had few, if any, toddler books. So I chose my favourite toddler book that Shรฆ also loved and bought a bunch of copies for the sole purpose of putting in the little free libraries for other toddler parents
Today, they arrived and I brought the kids with me to deliver them
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So having a cool fight with an octopus in the sewer was 100% a thing he thought was cool. But then we just gave the octopus a goodberry and moved on.
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DM: You see a great elk in the clearing you need to hunt, do you set traps or try to shoot it from where you are?
Me: I use my paladin power to abjure it, making it frightened, and then I walk to it and plunge my great-sword between his eyes.
Thankfully the DM was delighted by my โsolutionโ, DnD is stupid but fun when you take it as a puzzle board game.
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It was force majeure!
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Plus my first game was fate, which fits that so well imo
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I want to be clear that I've been careful in who I've let in and these are all people who I appreciate greatly and have no interest in not having in my life, and I don't want to sound ungrateful, I'm just a bit tired of the anxiety I get from expressing my needs around it
I feel like most people have moved on because their circumstances are different and they don't necessarily understand why I haven't yet
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