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Becky friendica

Content warning: depression

I feel like I disengage with all forms of connection when I am doing this badly. It's just really hard to reach out and put the energy into caring about others (outside of avery limited number of people). Usually I thrive on putting that kind of energy out there, but now it's hard. I'll go weeks without wanting to open up (I mean, what is there to say even?)... I've been like this for a long time, but I'm also wondering about what is actually a healthy and productive way of coping. Is cutting social connection out like that a good way to cope, as long as I still keep a few people in? It's a lot harder to have a perspective on what is okay when it's happening to you. I mean, all that said, I ultimately don't want anyone to worry about me either - it'll all be different in May anyway, just holding onto that future...
Becky friendica
Anyway, exploring my mental health and finding ways to maximize my potential is a way I cope,because at the end of the day it's literally my only avenue for success in healing. History has taught me I am not afforded the luxury of going about my life without doing everything in my power to maximize my potential
Hypolite Petovan friendica (via ActivityPub)
I'm curious about this history, is it personal history or general history?
Becky friendica
It's my personal history... I think some people are able to manage their mental illnesses or mental health difficulties without medication, or in other ways, but for me personally those options I don't think would ever work... and I've seen a glimpse of what it might be like if I didn't do everything I can (through family and also not knowing how to handle things when I was younger)
Hypolite Petovan friendica (via ActivityPub)
What is planned for May for you if it isn't too personal?
Becky friendica
This is a happier topic, the baby is due June 1st, but I've been told I'll be induced early because of some of the complications. So in May we'll get to welcome a new addition to our family 😊
Hypolite Petovan friendica (via ActivityPub)
Ah yes, then you'll be able to finally rest 😄
Becky friendica
Lol, ain't no resting with a newborn, but at least last time I preferred having a new kiddo to being pregnant, and @silverwizard is taking some pat leave 😄
We slept *so much* when we had a newbor
But newborn and toddler is gonna be a thing
Becky friendica
Fair.. only time will tell, but at least it won't be the current predicament